What causes it? Anything can set me off. At the moment I can't sleep at night because my microwave is broken and I can't afford a new one.
Yup.
That's right.
Ridiculous.
Soooo, it starts off as a worry that I can't make porridge for P (obviously I can on the hob but time is extremely limited on a week day morning!) Then I worry that she won't be happy which equals being a bad parent. But the worry is twofold, because at the same time as worrying about that I'll be worrying about why I can't afford a microwave. Why do I work if I feel tired all the time, stressed and irritable (and feel worried about being stressed, tired and irritable)? What's the point in all that if I can't afford a basic microwave. Which then leads back to the worry about being a bad parent. What type of parent can't afford a microwave??!
It's a frightening place in my head. This is just one of my worries. There is a list and they all take turns at being at the top and hijacking my sleep patterns.
Today I bought Kalms, a herbal stress remedy. Will it stop the microwave downward spiral - I don't know but I will try and find out.
I'll report back.
PS Can anyone lend me a microwave?
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